Isolation! Thats where I am right now, I am feeling very alone here in CT. all my family and friends are not in theis state.
We still have not found the right house to move to.. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself today! I know I should'nt, I have soo very much to be gratefull for.
I think it's just everything right now, I need a bigger house to live in, a yard for Emmy to run in. I am also thinking about my grand children, all in DCF custody right now, they are taking away my daughter's right's. I feel hurt and pain right to my very soul and there is NOTHING I can do to fix it! I am her MOM after all, MOM'S FIX THING"S!!! but this thing, I can not fix and its eating me up inside! I keep telling myself "IF she had only listenned to me" when I tried to tell her she was screwing up!
But like many , she did not listen and look now what has happenned! I am not beating myself up for this anymore, I am beyond that now, all the "WHAT IF"S" but I still hurt for the children. I miss them, Now the only time I see them is at a controlled visit, for about an hour a month..I just needed to Vent a little, I feel better now..
Brightest Blessings to ALL..